Depression

Hearing today's speaker share on depression brought back memories, recent and far off.

I never knew much about depression. And even when I did, I didn't see it. But Pst. Kong really brought it out. When he was being so real, so truthful about the times he underwent depression, I realised - often in my teenage years I went through that.

With the recent developments, at 1 point, I realised, I was like that. No interest in many things that I had interest in. The lowest point came, and when I turned to a FPS game - Enemy Territory. It's always the last resort, because playing such games really numbs your senses, just shooting and downing players, or getting shot. Completing objectives, or doing some suicidal stunts that help complete the objective but yourself killed.

Even that didn't work.

Yet, you know, in all things, God is there. And from that, I was reminded of how youths play games not just to kill time. There's a reason why people do things, say things, approach things, which I learnt well even the past couple of days. Very often, it is a convenient escape into fantasy, where things are more in your control. It numbs your senses, and takes your mind off things. In fact, like all things when misused, it becomes like a drug. Anything can become a drug. Even good works! And I've come to understand youths even more, why they do the things they do.


But the beautiful thing is, God uses all experiences, good and bad, for the ultimate goal of shaping us and building us up. And in that, I am grateful. :)

Find meaning in your work, no matter what you are called to do. Complaining only makes things worse for you, but not for others. In everything, God has His purpose!